Wednesday, March 4, 2009

Rollercoaster Ride ....

I was never really a big fan of the rollercoaster ride.  There were many visits to Dreamworld before I summoned up the courage to ride the Thunderbolt.  I was pretty pleased when the ride came to an end.
In 1997 my mother and I went on holiday to the UK.  It was an amazing trip, one I will never forget.  The reason for the holiday was so that my mother could see her family, as it had been nearly 30 years I think since she had last seen them.
On a trip to Blackpool with mum's brother Keith and his family, we went to a fun park.  There was, at the time, the World's largest rollercoaster ride "The Pepsi Max" (strange it is named after my favourite drink, because it certainly wasn't my favourite ride).  My cousin Katherine and her boyfriend pleaded with me to have a go.  I thought 'what the hell' after all I was on the other side of the world, shame to go all that way and not have a go.  Well when it came time to get on, there was room in one car for two, but not three so they ditched me and said they would get the next one.  So there I sat all on my own about to go to hell and back.
I kept my eyes open for the leisurely climb to the top and for a brief moment enjoyed the view of the water, from then on in things are a little vague as my eyes were pretty much shut the whole time and I screamed quite a few obscenities.
I was shaking like a leaf by the time I got off and was walking like I'd had a few.  They take a photo of you on it as you go around, but you have to go and look at it straight away otherwise you miss your chance, you have about 2 minutes I think.  Well it took me that long to get my brain back in gear and never did get to see what I looked like.
The reason I have started on this little tangent...is because I feel like my health is on some kind of rollercoaster.
I went to the Dr to get my blood test results today, and my thyroid levels are ok, my Dr was even considering lowering my dose of medication.  But some of the other levels were high, so now I need to go and see a Rheumatologist.
I have been going back and forth with GP's and Specialists for the last 18 years, and I really would just love to get off that ride.
Its frustrating, exhausting and at times a little bit depressing.
I am 35 years old and sometimes I feel like I'm 65 years old.  Then I think what on earth will I be like when I am 65 years old.
It just sucks sometimes.
I hope that my little girl doesn't inherit the hormone problems I have had to endure.
Enough whinging, you've just got to pick yourself up and keep going.

1 comment:

  1. I hope that you find answers soon. So that you can live your life without pain all the time. Yes, life is like a rollercoaster, but it would be nicer to view life from the top, rather than the valleys....

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